‘It was tough’: Billie Eilish recalls moment she realised all her ‘friends’ were employees

Billie Eilish has claimed she misplaced all of her mates when she shot to world fame as a teenage pop star.

The “Unhealthy Man” singer, 22, achieved widespread recognition along with her debut single “Ocean Eyes” earlier than taking pictures to world fame upon the discharge of her first album, When We All Fall Asleep, The place Do We Go? when she was simply 17 years outdated.

In a particular episode of Lily Allen and Miquita Oliver’s podcast Miss Me?, Eilish answered listeners’ questions across the theme of ghosts, prompting her to open up about not having any mates when she first skilled fame.

“I misplaced all of my mates once I obtained well-known,” she stated. “Actually all besides one. My finest good friend Zoe who I’ve been mates with since I used to be like two. She continues to be my woman.

“However she’s just about the one person who remained. I out of the blue was well-known and I couldn’t relate to anyone. It was robust. It was actually exhausting.”

Oliver then requested her whether or not she tried to name these individuals up when she obtained again from tour, solely to search out they weren’t answering.

“I attempted however I believe I felt resentful that I didn’t really feel… Like I don’t know I used to be so younger,” Eilish responded, revealing that she realised all her “mates” had been in reality her staff throughout a second at her twentieth birthday.

“I bear in mind trying across the room and it was solely folks that I make use of,” she stated. “And all 15 years or extra older than me. After which, one in all my finest mates, who labored with me, stop. Out of the blue and didn’t discuss to me. And it was the worst factor that occurred to me.”

“I had this realisation that oh no, I is perhaps truly alone for actual,” she stated. “So since then I’ve develop into very distant in that means from folks that I work with and I’ve a really bizarre relationship to being pleasant with folks that I work with as a result of I’m very freaked out by loss and I’ve a number of abandonment issues.

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“Additionally I might get into relationships and that might be my one good friend… even when it was a relationship that I didn’t essentially actually need after a second, I’d be like nicely, that’s all I’ve.

“After which I labored actually exhausting on friendship and making mates, and making new mates, and rekindling outdated friendships and about precisely a 12 months in the past, I reconnected with a bunch of outdated mates and now, I’ve so many mates.”

Eilish revealed that she then grew emotional throughout Coachella pageant this 12 months, in April, when she was on the way in which to a celebration.

“We get within the automobile and my mates had been like what’s happening are you okay? And I used to be like completely positive… And I burst into tears,” she recalled. “They usually stated what’s happening and I used to be like guys, I’ve mates and I simply love you guys a lot and it’s been so lengthy since I’ve had mates. I cried… and it’s actually as a result of I even have friendship now once more.”

Eilish is at the moment supporting the discharge of her third album, Hit Me Arduous and Mushy. Learn Helen Brown’s evaluation right here.

Miss Me? is out there each Monday and Thursday on BBC Sounds.