Billie Eilish first guest on Miss Me? with Lily Allen and Miquita Oliver

Lily Allen and Miquita Oliver’s twice weekly transatlantic catchups in Miss Me? sees world pop phenomenon Billie Eilish as first visitor.

For this week’s particular version of Monday’s Pay attention B*tch!, Billie solutions listener questions across the theme of Ghosts.

She talks to Lily and Miquita about being ‘ghosted’, how she struggled to keep up friendships after discovering fame and the way Lily’s music Smile impressed Billie to make new buddies.

On being ghosted, Billie says: “I’ve been ghosted for certain; I had a loopy ghosting occur really this December. It was insane. It’s in all probability the craziest one which’s ever occurred to me. I used to be like, did you die? Did you actually die?

“It was anyone that I’d additionally recognized for years and had a plan, the day of, making a plan, that is my handle, be there at 3pm – by no means heard from him once more. Ever. I couldn’t imagine it. What a fucking little pathetic man. What a tiny little man.”

She says it was unbelievable as a result of it’s somebody she’s recognized for years and to today, he’s by no means texted once more.

When Billie grew to become well-known, she misplaced buddies besides her finest good friend Zoe, who she’s recognized since they had been two years previous. That was onerous for her.

“I feel I felt resentful that I didn’t really feel… Like I don’t know I used to be so younger,” she says. “Every little thing I felt then I don’t assume I might even stand by. You realize, actually the world was being handed to me on a silver platter like, ‘would you want this?’… And so actually all of my buddies had been my staff, which I felt was positive and I used to be like, what do you imply, I’ve buddies, I’ve so many buddies.”

It was on her twentieth birthday she seemed across the room and it was solely individuals she employed and so they had been all a lot older than her. Then, certainly one of her finest buddies who labored together with her stop out of the blue and didn’t speak to her.

“And that made me realise like ‘oh wait, it is a job and these aren’t actually individuals which can be… like in the event that they left me they’d by no means see me once more. And I had this realisation that oh no, I may be really alone for actual,” she says.

This made her turn into distant from individuals she labored with and have a bizarre relationship to being pleasant with them as a result of she will get freaked out by loss and has lots of abandonment issues.

“Additionally, I might get into relationships and that might be my one good friend… even when it was a relationship that I didn’t essentially really need after a second, I’d be like properly, that’s all I’ve. After which I labored actually onerous on friendship and making buddies, and making new buddies, and rekindling previous friendships and about precisely a 12 months in the past, I reconnected with a bunch of previous buddies and now, I’ve so many buddies.”

Persevering with, Billie says: “I’ve a crew now! I may actually cry about it. It’s been the best factor that’s occurred to me. I used to be at Coachella virtually two months in the past and we went to this get together … And we get within the automobile and my buddies had been like what’s happening are you okay? And I used to be like completely positive… And I burst into tears.

“They stated what’s happening and I used to be like guys, I’ve buddies and I simply love you guys a lot and it’s been so lengthy since I’ve had buddies. I cried… and it’s actually as a result of I even have friendship now once more.”

She admits that she couldn’t go on with out buddies and that friendship is the perfect a part of her life.

“And what’s attention-grabbing, and it’s humorous that it’s you, in ‘Smile’ you have got that line “with slightly assist from my buddies, I discovered the sunshine on the finish of the tunnel”. I used to wish to cry listening to that line as a result of I didn’t really feel that manner as a result of I didn’t have buddies.

“I bear in mind pondering I wish to really feel that manner. And I wish to hearken to this music that I relate to in each manner and listen to that line about buddies and be like, my buddies bought me by way of it.”

You’ll be able to hear the entire episode of Miss Me? now, accessible on BBC Sounds.